According to the Ottawa Citizen, Jamie was the only out gay teen in his highschool. This could not have been an easy thing. There have been many times when I have been the only Black person in a room and I know the level of discomfort of not seeing anyone who is like you, who understands on an intrinsic level. Though he clearly had friends not having someone who understands what you are going through is an isolating, lonely way to live.
“From the outside, he looked like the happiest kid. He was always smiling and giving everybody hugs in the halls,” said Steph Wheeler, a close friend who had known Jamie since the pair were in figure skating together as children a decade ago.
But Wheeler, 16, knew the sensitive boy was struggling with being out in high school and often felt the sting of verbal bullying. She said all that Jamie wanted was what every teenager wants — somebody to love.
“I just remember him wanting a boyfriend so bad, he’d always ask me to find a boy for him. I think he wanted someone to love him for who he was,” she said.
Jamie had struggled with depression in the past. But despite how he felt on the inside, he often put a smile on his face, setting aside his own pain for others.
“Even though he was feeling down all the time, he always made everybody else feel better,” she said.
“Something to look forward to,” he wrote.
But he also wrote of his sadness and despair, about being called a “fag.”
In a post three weeks ago, he said he was depressed, that medications he was taking weren’t working, and that being gay in high school was so hard — a thousand times harder in real life than on the popular television show, Glee, which he loved.
“I hate being the only open gay guy in my school ... It f---ing sucks, I really want to end it,” he wrote. (source)